Sadly, I know exactly what you are talking about.
I never remember the flatline or the time in comas or times that I was not breathing, etc…,I ALWAYS wake up or come to, or am pulled out of a medically induced coma 4 days later, being told all sorts of crazy things.
There have been many near deaths / deaths for me, not gonna go over them in your thread, and I have talked about them mostly in other threads, but after I blacked out, fell flat back and hit my head on concrete, cracking my skull and getting several days of brain bleed, being in heat trauma ICU for a week, then getting cleared to go home, this is exactly how I felt for weeks.
it was horrible, I could be pouring tears, then laughing, crying, angry, sad, mad, aggravated, happy, lonely and smothered, all within about a 3 minute span, but sometimes lasting for hours at a time. It was freaking horrible.
but I know exactly what you are saying, when I read that, it sent chills up my spine
Its ok you hate shellfish, I will eat all yours when ever we dine out, I love the stuff.
Great story, glad you made it thru, sounds horrible, and like almost not knowing or remembering it, is almost better. IDK why, my body / brain blocks out some trauma, and people tell me what I did and said and was doing, etc, and once I get that kind of shock, it blocks it out completely. Maybe its the meds that erase any recollection, cuz its usually when they change some meds, or take some meds away, that they wake me up and tell me what happened, and its always 4 days later. I am kind of glad, after the stories I have heard of what happened each time, and jaws of life cutting a car open with me screaming of pain inside, but not recollecting it at all, I almost think its better that way.
Kind of blown away how you shocked the doctor with everything you told him happened, I would have liked to been there for that conversation.
I have a thing about doctors that have never actually gone thru things, thinking they understand them, especially with medicine’s and addictions and withdrawals, but with many things too, telling you what is possible or not.
